For me, 2014 started off not so great. I was in denial, though, since the year started with my birthday month and I kind of look at that as my "New Year," plus it's hard for me to be negative when it's my personal holiday. As the year went on, it sucked more and more. Some of the biggest life challenges I have ever had took place in the first half of the year. Things started turning around after that, and the year ended much better than it started, but I have "2015" thoughts moving forward:
2 things I learned this past year:
1) One of the most important and effective things to gaining and maintaining positivity is to live in the moment and enjoy what is in front of you. The past is gone and you can only plan so much for the future. Anyone who knows me is aware of my OCD when it comes to planning things out and knowing my options; that lovely quality will never cease, but instead of ignoring and missing out on the wonderful people, moments, and accomplishments in front of me, I am making the conscious decision to enjoy them when they are right in front of me.
2) Just when I thought I had a hold on what I knew, I was wrong. I thought I knew what mental illness I had. I thought I would never find a job in this area that I loved as much as the one I left in NC. I thought my marriage was always going to be the cliché. I thought I had lost certain important people in my life. I thought I wouldn't find people I could think of as good friends like the ones I left behind when I moved. I thought I was a selfish bitch. I thought I wouldn't feel happy about my body. I thought I was always going to be about 20-30% shy of complete happiness. I was wrong about all of them.
0 in on one thing to improve this upcoming year:
I would like to focus this year on our family budget. I'm the one who will open up the spreadsheet and calculate the month's bills to see what's happening with our money. There are always months where we feel like ballers and months when we think we may have to select which cardboard box we'll move to. I'm tired of that shit. I see all these things out there, from people I personally know, about how they saved X amount or payed down X amount of debt. I want that to be me.
1 thing I hope to learn:
I hope to continue to learn more about myself as a person. The older I get, the more I recognize qualities about myself, many of which I like.
5 things that give me hope for the new year:
1) Love
2) Knowledge
3) Friendship
4) Faith
5) Inner Strength
Boo ya, bitches!
2 things I learned this past year:
1) One of the most important and effective things to gaining and maintaining positivity is to live in the moment and enjoy what is in front of you. The past is gone and you can only plan so much for the future. Anyone who knows me is aware of my OCD when it comes to planning things out and knowing my options; that lovely quality will never cease, but instead of ignoring and missing out on the wonderful people, moments, and accomplishments in front of me, I am making the conscious decision to enjoy them when they are right in front of me.
2) Just when I thought I had a hold on what I knew, I was wrong. I thought I knew what mental illness I had. I thought I would never find a job in this area that I loved as much as the one I left in NC. I thought my marriage was always going to be the cliché. I thought I had lost certain important people in my life. I thought I wouldn't find people I could think of as good friends like the ones I left behind when I moved. I thought I was a selfish bitch. I thought I wouldn't feel happy about my body. I thought I was always going to be about 20-30% shy of complete happiness. I was wrong about all of them.
0 in on one thing to improve this upcoming year:
I would like to focus this year on our family budget. I'm the one who will open up the spreadsheet and calculate the month's bills to see what's happening with our money. There are always months where we feel like ballers and months when we think we may have to select which cardboard box we'll move to. I'm tired of that shit. I see all these things out there, from people I personally know, about how they saved X amount or payed down X amount of debt. I want that to be me.
1 thing I hope to learn:
I hope to continue to learn more about myself as a person. The older I get, the more I recognize qualities about myself, many of which I like.
5 things that give me hope for the new year:
1) Love
2) Knowledge
3) Friendship
4) Faith
5) Inner Strength
Boo ya, bitches!
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